{"id":7806,"date":"2022-02-04T10:02:32","date_gmt":"2022-02-04T06:02:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/?p=7806"},"modified":"2022-02-04T10:03:24","modified_gmt":"2022-02-04T06:03:24","slug":"m%c9%99ni-d%c9%99yis%c9%99n-sual","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/2022\/02\/04\/m%c9%99ni-d%c9%99yis%c9%99n-sual\/","title":{"rendered":"M\u018fN\u0130 D\u018fY\u0130\u015e\u018fN SUAL"},"content":{"rendered":"
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(Hekay\u0259)<\/strong><\/div>\n
Ruslanla sonuncu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz 1 il \u0259vv\u0259l olmu\u015fdu. Xeyli d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fib ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. \u00d6z\u00fc \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, n\u00f6qsanlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259n, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm yollar\u0131 axtaran bir qarda\u015fd\u0131r. H\u0259m valideynl\u0259ri il\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 Sevda il\u0259 olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n b\u0259hs etmi\u015fdi. Ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n fitvas\u0131na uyub Sevdan\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 nahaqq yer\u0259 incitm\u0259sind\u0259n, tez-tez q\u0259lbini q\u0131rmas\u0131ndan narahat idi.<\/div>\n
– \u00c7ox pe\u015fman oluram, qarda\u015f, amma yen\u0259 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra h\u0259r \u015feyi unudur, eyni s\u0259hvi t\u0259krar edir\u0259m. Hardand\u0131r bizd\u0259 qad\u0131nlara qar\u015f\u0131 yuxar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 baxmaq x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259ti? Niy\u0259 biz ki\u015fil\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczl\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 qad\u0131nlar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck? Kim sal\u0131b bunu bizim beynimiz\u0259, \u015f\u00fcuralt\u0131m\u0131za? Ax\u0131 nec\u0259 olur ki, biz ki\u015fil\u0259r evl\u0259n\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u015f tac\u0131m\u0131z etdiyimiz qad\u0131n\u0131 evl\u0259ndikd\u0259n sonra \u0259n r\u0259zil v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r al\u00e7ada bilirik?<\/div>\n
– D\u00fczd\u00fcr, Ruslan qarda\u015f, s\u0259ninl\u0259 raz\u0131yam. El\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259min d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 var. Dey\u0259rdim ki, biz ki\u015fil\u0259rin \u00e7oxunda f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmasaq da, etiraf etm\u0259s\u0259k d\u0259, qad\u0131nlar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamaq hal\u0131 var. H\u0259rd\u0259n evd\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda zarafatla da olsa, yolda\u015f\u0131ma, onun ata-anas\u0131na b\u0259zi s\u00f6zl\u0259r istifad\u0259 edir\u0259m. Sonradan \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 hesabat verdiyimd\u0259, bunu d\u0259qiq bilir\u0259m ki, eyni s\u00f6zl\u0259r, zarafatlar m\u0259n\u0259, ya ata-anama qar\u015f\u0131 olunsa, \u0259sla raz\u0131 olmaram. Anlay\u0131ram ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 layiq bilm\u0259diyimiz s\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259tta \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyimiz insana, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131za istifad\u0259 edirik. O yaz\u0131qlar da ab\u0131rlar\u0131na q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b, he\u00e7 bir etiraz etmirl\u0259r.<\/div>\n
– S\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131san e, m\u0259n, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, \u00e7ox h\u0259ddi a\u015f\u0131ram. Biraz yem\u0259k gecikir, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r-ba\u011f\u0131r sal\u0131ram. \u00dct\u00fcs\u00fcz paltar g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259 beynim \u00e7\u00f6n\u00fcr. Bil\u0259-bil\u0259 ki, u\u015faqlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda analar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259hqir etm\u0259k onlara d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli stress ya\u015fad\u0131r, yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi unuduram. \u0130nan ki, sonradan namazda oturub a\u011flay\u0131ram, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n Allaha \u015fikay\u0259t edir\u0259m, h\u0259tta s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, bir daha olmaz, yen\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l ed\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
– \u0130nan\u0131ram ki, bu pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q hal\u0131n bir g\u00fcn s\u0259ni d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k. \u018fsas odur, s\u0259n bu m\u0259nfi hal\u0131n f\u0259rqind\u0259s\u0259n v\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259hdl\u0259r edirs\u0259n. Bilirs\u0259n, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki\u015fil\u0259r var ki, xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcr, s\u00f6y\u00fcr v\u0259 bunu n\u0259inki n\u00f6qsan bilmir \u0259ksin\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 f\u0259xr, \u0259sl \u201cki\u015filik\u201d bilir. S\u0259n \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr Allaha ki, bu hal\u0131ndan narahatsan v\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. He\u00e7 kim bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u00fc d\u0259yi\u015fiklik ed\u0259 bilmir. \u018fslind\u0259, el\u0259 ki\u00e7ik-ki\u00e7ik c\u0259hdl\u0259r, t\u0259slim olub dayanmamaq, y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 yenid\u0259n qalxmaq\u0131m\u0131z bizi m\u00fcsb\u0259t\u0259 do\u011fru d\u0259yi\u015fir.<\/div>\n
– N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, s\u0259n m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n. B\u0259zi inancl\u0131 dost-tan\u0131\u015fla bu s\u00f6hb\u0259ti ed\u0259nd\u0259 deyir ki, \u0130slamda ki\u015fi qad\u0131ndan \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Hardan bu n\u0259tic\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259libl\u0259r, adam anlam\u0131r… \u00d6zl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259lill\u0259r d\u0259 tap\u0131blar… Bir halda ki, Allah\u0131n n\u0259z\u0259rind\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck daha \u0259xlaql\u0131, daha h\u0259yal\u0131, daha t\u0259qval\u0131 olmaqd\u0131r.<\/div>\n
Bir il \u0259v\u0259l aram\u0131zda t\u0259qrib\u0259n bel\u0259 bir dialoq olmu\u015fdu. Bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 ail\u0259likc\u0259 Bak\u0131ya yolumuz d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ruslan bizi evin\u0259 \u015fam yem\u0259yin\u0259 qonaq \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7ox t\u0259kid etdi ki, yolda\u015f\u0131mla b\u0259rab\u0259r g\u0259lim. El\u0259 biz d\u0259 ikimiz getdik. G\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda bol-bol s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r, zarafatlar etdik. Ruslan\u0131n xan\u0131m\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdiyini g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. Xan\u0131m\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u00fc, mehriban r\u0259ftar\u0131 m\u0259ni d\u0259, yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 da \u00f6z t\u0259sirin\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Maraql\u0131d\u0131r ki, biz ki\u015fil\u0259r xan\u0131mla gizlind\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r mehriban olsaq da, bir ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda bunu biruz\u0259 verm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259limizd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni edir, s\u0259rt-ac\u0131ql\u0131 sima al\u0131r, kobud s\u00f6zl\u0259r istifad\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 meyilli oluruq. S\u0259b\u0259bi d\u0259 budur ki, c\u0259miyy\u0259timizd\u0259 ki\u015finin \u00f6z xan\u0131m\u0131na h\u00f6rm\u0259t etm\u0259si, mehribanl\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259si q\u0259bah\u0259t say\u0131l\u0131r, q\u0131nan\u0131l\u0131b, m\u0259sx\u0259r\u0259 edilir. Amma Ruslan h\u0259tta bizim yan\u0131m\u0131zda da xan\u0131m\u0131yla son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 m\u00fclayim r\u0259ftar edir, xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259r v\u0259 sevgi dolu bax\u0131\u015flarla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Xan\u0131m\u0131 da Ruslandan a\u011f\u0131z dolusu t\u0259rifl\u0259rl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, tamamil\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fildiyini tez-tez dil\u0259 g\u0259tirirdi.<\/div>\n
Yem\u0259kd\u0259n sonra qad\u0131nlar m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7dikd\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259t tap\u0131b Ruslandan bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni nec\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc soru\u015fdum. Cavab\u0131 m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00e7ox sirk\u0259l\u0259di, beynimd\u0259 yeni bir bax\u0131\u015f buca\u011f\u0131 yaratd\u0131.<\/div>\n
– Qarda\u015f\u0131m, yad\u0131ndad\u0131r, s\u0259n\u0259 bu haqda narahat oldu\u011fumu, dualar etdiyimi, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 demi\u015fdim. Bu g\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259vi probleml\u0259rin, qaranl\u0131q qalan suallar\u0131n h\u0259llini \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259 ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ms\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc tapm\u0131\u015fam. \u0130nsan \u00f6z beynini, qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q tutarsa, m\u00fctl\u0259q m\u00fcsb\u0259t cavablar alacaqd\u0131r. \u00c7ox vaxt da bu cavablar\u0131 almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn beynimizi suallarla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful etm\u0259liyik. X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 vicdan\u0131n verdiyi p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 suallar… O suallar ki, \u00e7ox zaman n\u0259fsani ist\u0259kl\u0259rin hay-k\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n e\u015fidilmir. Bax, h\u0259min suallardan biri d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yim\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b oldu. O sual bu idi:<\/div>\n
\u201cH\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n C\u0259nn\u0259t \u0259hli oldu\u011funu bils\u0259n, etdiyin t\u0259hqirl\u0259r\u0259, m\u0259sx\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lay\u0131c\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0259lb q\u0131ran s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 davam ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259nmi ?\u201d<\/div>\n
Halbuki C\u0259nn\u0259tin analar\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda oldu\u011funu h\u0259r k\u0259s bilir, amma t\u0259kc\u0259 bizim anam\u0131z\u0131n deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6vladlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda oldu\u011funu is\u0259 ham\u0131 bilmir…<\/div>\n
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Eldar \u0130lqaoglu<\/strong><\/div>\n
L\u0259nk\u0259ran, Boladi<\/strong><\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Hekay\u0259) Ruslanla sonuncu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz 1 il \u0259vv\u0259l olmu\u015fdu. Xeyli d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fib ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. \u00d6z\u00fc \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, n\u00f6qsanlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259n, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm yollar\u0131 axtaran bir qarda\u015fd\u0131r. H\u0259m valideynl\u0259ri il\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 Sevda il\u0259 olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n b\u0259hs etmi\u015fdi. Ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n fitvas\u0131na uyub Sevdan\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 nahaqq yer\u0259 incitm\u0259sind\u0259n, tez-tez q\u0259lbini q\u0131rmas\u0131ndan narahat idi. – \u00c7ox pe\u015fman oluram, qarda\u015f, amma yen\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":7808,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[72,26,34],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7806","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-mdniyyt-xbrlr","category-xbrlr","category-ziyalilarimiz"],"translation":{"provider":"WPGlobus","version":"3.0.2","language":"az","enabled_languages":["tl","az"],"languages":{"tl":{"title":true,"content":true,"excerpt":false},"az":{"title":false,"content":false,"excerpt":false}}},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7806","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7806"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7806\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7810,"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7806\/revisions\/7810"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/7808"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7806"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7806"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dodoqezeti.az\/az\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7806"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}